Our boy is One!!

 Wow, who can believe that our little Gus is now one year old! There have been so many moments of joy that have touched our hearts since Angus came into our lives. He has a great sense of humour. (I'm Canadian so accept my 'u' in humour!) He loves to laugh and smile. He thinks that every child was put on this earth to play with him. He melts hearts wherever he goes. He loves to run! Walking is not an option! He has been on the move since he was 11 months old. He loves to think he can talk, he is a non-stop babbler! He loves being on the phone and he gets a kick out of talking to the mirror.

 Angus is learning what the word 'no' means. He was in daycare for a while when I went back to work and he loved every day of it. We were so fortunate that we were able to get him into a brand new daycare that was so close to home. On his first day, Justin and I were a mess. We were trying to not cry when we dropped him off, luckily we both had the day off so we were cry babies together. Anyway we thought we'd give him a half day to ease him into the new environment so we picked him up after lunch...big mistake! He was so upset to see us! He cried all the way home...we felt so bad. The next morning AJ reached for his teacher when I dropped him off, so we let him stay the whole day.

AJ is no longer in daycare because we ended up finding out that I am pregnant AGAIN!! Because of my job and where I work, I am off on a preventative leave before I start my maternity leave. I love having this time to be at home with Angus. He is my constant entertainment and he is going to be the best big brother ever! The next little peanut is due in June and we are all so excited. So being that I am second born in my family, I want to be fair to both kids. I will be blogging about Peanuts journey on a new page and keep this on for Gus.

Happy holidays to everyone! xoxo

Where are we now?!

Ok so each time I sit down to write, I forget what it is that I want to say and then Angus has a lot to say so he wins. Angus is 7 months and a couple of weeks now. He is still breastfed but does have formula every once and a while. He has started on solids, thank goodness. He is eating zucchini, sweet potatoes, carrots, avocado, banana, peach, pineapple, chicken and he is about to start on turkey. Oh and he has had rice, oat and barley cereals. This boy of mine loves to eat and it shows!! Angus is now 22.5 lbs and is wearing size 12 month clothing, not the 6-12 month but the 12-18 month outfits. His thighs are thunderous and his two tooth smile is the greatest in the world!

Angus is now able to getup on all fours as he is ready to crawl, however he is EASILY distracted and ends up on his tummy and rolls all over the floor instead. Rolling seems to be his preferred method of transportation, but if you get him to stand up and hold his hands, he will walk around for a bit. Well, the walking stops once he gets distracted and notices how close your fingers are to his mouth, then he bites!!

What else can I tell you??? He loves to sit on his own and he babbles non-stop!! Angus is such a joy, I sit back sometimes and think about how lucky I am to have such a wonderful being in my life.

No one can ever tell you how you will feel once you become a parent. The love I have for my child is endless and I am having the time of my life watching him grow.

And we're back!!!

Every day that goes by, my heart learns to love more deeply. I can't believe my son is five months old. I can't believe that my life has become what it is today. I look at my journals from when I was teen, a narrative that was a naive yet jaded look at life and love and I wonder how the same person can have such contradicting feelings. That's life for you. I always knew there was a reason why my mother would not let me get a tattoo. If I had to live with the decisions that I thought I was old enough to make back then, then I would have a rainbow coloured turtle tattooed to my tummy! Thank God for mothers who can say 'no'.

A lot has happened since my last post. Our little Gus has traveled far and wide! In March we took a 3,581 km (2,225 miles) train ride to Edmonton. That was a huge trip because it took 3 days just to get there, we stayed for a few days then we were on our 3 day trip back home. The following Sunday Angus started swim lessons.

A remarkable experience happened while we were in Edmonton. We were planning on staying at a hotel but my cousin and his wife insisted that we stay with them. We were a little hesitant since it had been 10 years since I last saw my cousin and I had not yet met his wife or 15 month old son. We did not want to bring our occasionally high tempered 3 month old to their quiet home. But they were not taking no for an answer and we ended up glad that they offered. My cousin and I were so happy to see each other. I ALMOST forgot how much fun he was. But his wife, is now my new girlfriend. It was such a blast catching up and hanging out with another young family. The babies loved playing together, it was neat too because their son is almost exactly a year older than Gus. We had a great care-free time and loved every moment of it. They even took us to Banff which was a 4 hour drive just to get there.

We loved every moment we spent with them and miss them now that we are home. The remarkable moment that I mentioned happen when we were visiting. One evening Justin who is usually shy and reserve around new people, turned to me and said " you know, I came here a stranger and I now I leave feeling like I'm family". We both are grateful to my generous cousin and his family and can't wait to travel and reconnect with them again.

Okay on the fast track to where we are now. Angus is 5 months old, wearing clothes that are for 9 month old.  He has two teeth, the bottom front chompers. He is able to sit up for a while before falling over. :) He loves to talk doesn't matter the time of day. Angus rolls from his tummy to his sides and today he just rolled from his back to his tummy! He is a busy boy with Swim class on Sundays, Playgroup on Mondays, Music on Tuesdays and Parents with babies movies on Wednesdays.

We are having so much fun with our boy of joy, we can't wait for number 2 :) I'll keep you posted!

Good bye February Thanks for The Memories...

I can't believe February is over. I know it's a short month, but my oh my it just flew bye. What has happened with our boy, you ask. Well he has grown so much. Angus is responding to sounds, shapes and faces. He knows who Mommy and Daddy are. He coos and tries to talk as much as he can. One of his pet peeves is having a wet diaper...we have learned which cry means what...most of the time.

Valentine's weekend was wonderful. I was spoiled by my son and husband. Justin showered me with gifts as well as made the greatest video/ slide show ever of our lives together. I start to cry just thinking of it. (in a good way) We had a great weekend as a family and enjoyed pancakes with lots of syrup!

The next weekend we did a family photoshoot. We had Nana (my mom) Pops (her boyfriend) GG (my grandfather) and Uncle TJ. It was such a good time capturing the magic effect Angus has on our lives. It's like holding a beam of happiness that warms your heart. I loved that we are so blessed to have such great moments.

Last week Angus had his first train ride. We had a quick trip to Windsor to introduce Angus to his paternal grandparents and great grandmother. Well actually his first train ride turned into his first bus ride too since because of  'technical difficulties' on the first train (of two to get to our destination) we missed our connecting train. Angus was an angel on the way there but on our ride home he was possessed by the evil gas...oh the cries of pain!

Now we are getting ready for our big trip to Edmonton. Three days on the train just to get there. We are going to have a great time, I just know it. I am so excited to introduce AJ to his aunt (Justin's sister) and her family. We haven't seen them in years so it's going to be fun catching up.

I shall keep you posted on our boy's growth. He has become a beautiful little boy who one day will become an amazing man. As excited as I am to see who he will someday be, I am perfectly happy holding him close to me and wiping his chin till then.

My boys

I have enjoyed every moment of mommy-hood thus far. I have also enjoyed watching my husband be an amazing father to our son. I have to say seeing my husband get his hands dirty, put a silly face on and get on the floor to play; makes my heart beam. I have been falling in love with Justin (my husband) a little more everyday and now that Angus is in our lives, I am head-over-heels in love and that honestly is the best feeling ever. We met when I was 19 and he had just turned 21, so at that time neither one of us was looking for 'the one' but it's amazing what you find when you're not looking. This summer we will be celebrating 10 years together and 5 years of marriage. I feel that our family is the greatest show of love that we could give each other.

If I could pick the perfect father for my son, I would pick Justin time and time again. He is not shy to be emotional and he is so passionate about being the best person that he can be. I tell AJ everyday that his daddy is superman. I feel that every moment you have with each other it is important to say how much you love each other and also to remind ourselves how much we are loved. My son has a world of people who love him, it takes a while to get through all of the names of his guardian angels in heaven and on earth.

I wouldn't want to change any part of my life. There are days where I need to remind myself of that fact but I am so blessed, I really am thankful. Today my son is 8 weeks old and 14.5lbs. He is a big boy with a big heart.   

Catching up!!

 Okay so it's been awhile since my last post. The updates thus far are:

January 18th baby's first bobo.
 OMG I will never forget this day. My poor son was left alone in his crib ( I obviously should have been in the crib with him!!) Bad crib! Bad crib!
Sorry back to the story, I was trying to let Gus nap in his crib while I tried to eat. He was a little fussy but was okay, we're into the testing stage. Anyway I hear him scream and I'm like super calm walking in his room with "hey buddy you're okay" and there was my bad mommy moment. My poor child had blood all along the outside of his right nostril. OMG I grabbed my screaming child and ran for the phone. I was thinking holy crap my son has a brain hemorrhage, is he bleeding out of his ears? No. Is he bleeding out of his eyes? No. Where is the source of blood coming for? I need to know to make a clear 911 call. Ok lets get a wash cloth and wipe away the blood...wait a second the blood is not inside his nose only on the outside.
Ladies and gentlemen the blood was only on the outside because my son had just scratched his nose with his long nails. Thank God I didn't call 911. After that intense ordeal my son had a manicure!
Motherhood makes you crazy!

What else can I tell you??? My little boy now seven weeks old and loves bath time. He is growing like a weed tipping the scales at 12.5lbs and he is wearing clothes for 3-6 month olds.

We have successfully gotten our boy on a sleep schedule. However we have had a few bumps in the road the last couple of weeks. Nonetheless we are back on track now. I have been trying to get back to emails and back on my blog but I have a royal cutie who rules the priority list.

My Little Boy

When I was a little girl, I played with my dolls. I was the mother to my never aging plastic dolls. Life was predictable because it was my imaginary world that paved the way for my dolls. As I got older I grew apart from my little doll family. I became a teenager and I began to take care of real babies. I became a responsible babysitter for other people's children. It was a fun way to temporarily live between the world of make believe and the world of motherhood. Now I am a mother. I am responsible for another life other than my own. I have an invested interest in this little boy's future. I wake-up thinking of my son and I go to bed still processing thoughts about him.

Every decision I make has an impact on my son's life. I am now responsible for acting in his best interest for the next 18 years or so. My heart now has a stronger beat because of my little boy.

In the one month and three days of his life thus far, AJ has had vaccinations, colds, and more recently my little boy was circumcised yesterday. Every time his lower lip starts to quiver, my heart melts and my eyes tear. He is my little boy and I hurt when he hurts. It is the hardest part of being a mom.

I would never trade this experience for the world. My son is the light of my life. He has made me a mother and my husband a wonderful father. I honestly am grateful for the love and support from my husband. A lot of women have to 'train' or 'teach' their husbands how to be fathers; I was blessed to have a husband who wants to be involved in every aspect of our son's life...even the diapers.

I can not wait to see the kind of man AJ will grow up to be but I know that for now and forever, he will always be my little boy.