Twenty-six Days Already....

I have been a mother now for 26 days. That is twenty-six days that I can say "ever since I became a mother.." and "since I started to have kids...". Twenty-six days of my new role, I am not only a daughter, sister, grand-daughter, niece, cousin, and wife; I am a mother. The most important job thus far.

I have to say I have learned quite a bit since stepping into my new role. For instance, I can survive on very little sleep, pajamas can be worn all day, you can count your good days by the amount of stains on your clothing from your child's bodily fluids and showers are a gift from God. I had mentioned to my husband the other day, that I have lowered my standards on sleeping environments; I was once described as the princess in the story the princess and the pea. When it comes to sleep, I always had to check that there were no wrinkles on the mattress or in the sheets. I would always make sure that the drawers were all neatly closed and the closet doors' shut, before I could get into bed. Now that I am a mother, I could care less if I had dirty socks on my pillow before putting my head down. (I don't have dirty socks on my pillow, I'm just saying IF I did I would not care that much!!)

I have had many amazing moments in these last twenty-six days, one of them was when I was at a family get-together recently. I had a day in the motherhood, I chatted with some wonderful ladies about their child birthing experiences. It was such a fulfilling and validating moment. I am a mother and I know what it is like to give birth to a child (I fit in). This may seem strange to read but when I was pregnant I had heard a lot of birthing experiences, and at that time I took those stories to heart but in a different way. I thought that I had known what my experience would be like, I would hear the stories and know that I was going to be different. I was never nervous or scared. Now that I had my son at this hen party, I realized how lucky I was to survive and how special each delivery is. Not two people have the exact experience, the best way to prepare yourself is to talk to as many mothers as possible. Knowledge is power and the more you know, the more you empower yourself to make logical decisions.

I would not change any part of my experience for the world. Even though the circumstances were not ideal, I am stronger because of it. My husband and I appreciate each breathe so much more and we are overwhelmed with joy that we have a perfect little angel to call our own.

Twenty-six days, countless diapers, many smiles and lots of love, what an amazing gift.